I have all these big dreams and aspirations of moving to a new state and starting over. Walking down the halls of my high school one last time; down the hallway and passed the locker you and I shared our freshman year. Reaching for my diploma at graduation, while I glance over at you for a split second. Of meeting a new friend while I’m moving into my college dorm for the first time. Living on my own and watching the sun rise in a new place at 6 am. Crashing into my bed at 3 am after a party. All the way to walking up the aisle at graduation to receive my degree, and buying my first real car and choosing my first home. Having two kids; Madeline and Coleton. All of these dreams sound grand wrapped up in pleasure; yet none of it can even compare to the amount of want I have to simply be with just you.
The question that continues to torture me still… When you shut your eyes, do you see me in your future?
I don’t know what else to tell you other than the purest reason that I miss you. And I miss us. And I won’t be the same without you. It’s hard as hell. So hard. But I can’t fix what’s been broken.
I’m just really excited. In 24 days, I’m leaving for Florida again! It’s been a year like are you serious.. But this time I’m road tripping with just my best friend. We even plan on leaving a day early & stopping in Gainesville for the night, so the next day we can visit the University of Florida which is my dream college. Then after we’re gonna keep driving to Tampa. & on top of all this, I might be moving to Florida permanently this summer. Aaahh okay. Life is looking up.